i know every mother has
that lump in their throat feeling
their baby is off to school
i feel this a hundred time over
for a million different reasons
my son often cannot recall the details of his day
what if someone treats him poorly?
he would be unable to communicate that to me
worries
that he may have a "behavior" or an "outburst"
be overwhelmed with the kids or the noise
that his teacher won't understand that he really is amazing
will the other kids like him?
please don't let him be all alone
that he won't be able to open his lunch by himself
that he might have to pee while on recess
(because we let him pee outside once this summer)
he doesn't always have a firm grasp on appropriate behavior
more more more
worries
this is so overwhelming
along with an extremely lengthily
email i sent to his Kindergarten teacher
detailing
our diagnosis
therapies
progress made
what we are working on
my overall concerns
our goals
An increased desire for learning
to be "present" with his peers
i have MORE worry
MORE MORE MORE MORE
i want to shout it at everyone i can
i am angry
angry at the parents
who don't have these worries
and will NEVER know what this feels like
i have protected my Al so fiercely
from the day he was born and our eyes first met
to let him go into the world
without me
***swallowing hard - the lump in my throat
