Gulp-Sigh-Tear-Breathe

I've been struggling with where WE belong

We started our playgroup

 Al sat all alone in the sandbox

the group was much older than I had expected
also with different needs on the "spectrum"

Same Day

Now on to ... gymnastics

Al has moved up from tiny tumblers to boy's level one

all neuro-typical boys

Al is all over the place

can't wait in line - jumping into pits - not following directions

"semi-typical" boy behavior

tough as a Mom to sit on the bleachers and know ...

I can feel what the other parents are thinking

"Wow, that kids is really out of control"

--never mind-- 

They weren't thinking

I actually heard that or something very close to it
being said right behind me
as Al took cuts once again

I want to scream

thanks for talking shit about my kid

sorry your kid had to wait one extra second

because my kid couldn't

I feel stuck

on one hand it's nice hearing that Al doesn't seem autistic

he MUST be very HIGH functioning 

on the other hand --- it sucks hearing that he

"Seems so NORMAL or doesn't

 look Autistic"

He is normal - He is my son

Gulp- Tear -Gulp -Sigh

Breathe -- over it